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On This Day...

This was the first photo I saw when I opened Facebook today. 




They do a great job of reminding you where you were and what you were doing this time last year, 2 years ago and on and on. Most days it brings a smile to my face. Some days I feel a pang of nostalgia and longing. Other days I feel nothing at all.

Today was different. I looked at this picture and the date and thought, "Holy shit. This picture of my low riders 'waiting for dad' would be way less cute if anyone had ANY idea what was going on at that point in time."

Two years ago, we had just decided after months to stop trying to have a baby and get a divorce instead. I was in this state of fuzziness. Not knowing if it was really REAL. Not knowing who to talk to. Feeling the weight of the failure of my marriage and the absolute fear of what was a very uncertain future. I was in auto mode....going through the motions of everyday life, posting our "happy" little family on social media and praying to God that this wasn't reality.

It was months before we would tell the majority of our friends and family and I wouldn't move out until December. It feels like a lifetime ago and, thanks to social media, I vividly remember how it felt to sit in that chair and take that pic with those sweet pups.

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